This blog skirts around the central relationship and key to my life. I don't often speak of my relationship with Jesus. I talk about church and faith and such, but I don't often say that the center of my life is my walk with Christ.
I had my reversion experience early. When I was Confirmed in the 5th grade I fully accepted the centrality of God in my life and received the Holy Spirit and awaited the call for my life. Then at 12 I asked for a new way to pray. Wow! The Holy Spirit granted my request and filled me up with faith and hope and love.
From then on my life was about Jesus and me. This doesn't mean that I didn't let go of His hand and try to run off in my own directions many many times. But, I always knew in my heart that I belonged to Him. He showed me His love and affection so many times as I ran head strong into trouble, into sin.
I feel His presence and love, and experience His grace and mercy. He is always there sending me love notes in the Scriptures, whispering to me in prayers. I receive Him at Mass. When I get busy or preoccupied He waits for me. He walks with me.
When I learn to surrender my will to His love, I achieve peace, joy and happiness. That is what Lent is to me, surrendering to Him. It is putting my life with Christ first. All the rest is not important.